Written by Brett   

As I sat and spoke to an old friend about God one evening, my thoughts drifted to a grievous sin which I once committed. While it is true I had asked to be forgiven for this act countless times, I believe it had become a stumbling block of sorts.

Yes I do believe in God the Father and His only begotten Son Yeshua (Jesus). And yes, I also believe in His love and His forgiveness. Yet something within me just wouldn´t allow myself tomove forward. I´m not saying more and more of God´s Word wasn´t being revealed to me over time, and I´m not saying the tenets of man-made religion were not being stripped from me either. I am saying, there was something holding me back.

So, as we sat there and my friend was talking, I was drifting off, and I was thinking about how I really wanted to be forgiven for what I had done. Suddenly, my stomach felt as though I had eaten something extremely bitter, it was very much like some bitter almonds I had eaten days before. But this was progressively getting worse and very rapidly.

Much to my amazement, all of a sudden I could see and feel myself being sucked into a tunnel, albeit rectangular in shape. I could see the walls flying by me, just like one sees the walls as they speed through a tunnel in a vehicle. The only difference was, other than not being in a vehicle, it was more like being pulled back in a slingshot and then let go. What I saw next was something I never saw before. Even more interesting, was the fact that I could actually feel what was happening to me.

Suddenly I was somewhere else and I no longer had that bitter feeling in my stomach. I was standing there (somewhere), and as I looked to my left I saw and thought, that´s an Angel. I´m 6'1" tall, he was probably a couple of feet taller than me and he was quite bright. My head immediately turned so I was facing forward. What I saw amazed me, just as much as what I said, and whathappened next. The exact words which came out of my mouth were, ¨Whoa, you´re Yeshua!¨

Immediately, as I saw His face, I was on my knees and in what was quite probably a blink of an eye, I was overwhelmed with the horrible feeling of every sin I had committed in my life. The feeling of my sins which flooded my being in that instant, forced my face to the ground. I tried to push myself up with my arms, but the weight of my sins were too much for me. I remember turning my head and I looked at the Angel and I said, ¨Kill me, I´m not worthy to be in His presence.

¨What happened next, I will never forget. The Angel just stood there looking at me, but what I heard was Yeshua saying, ¨Brett, get up.¨ So I got on my feet and what I saw is somewhat difficult to put into words. I was looking at Yeshua´s smiling face and I no longer had that horrible weight of my sins pushing me down. Light was emanating from Him, not like the light from the sun, but extremely bright; His face was brighter than the sun, or the brightness of an arc that is created when a welding rod first strikes metal, but I didn´t need to squint my eyes.

Yeshua´s light appeared and felt like purity, and it went right through me. That is the best way I am able describe His countenance...whatever the essence of purity is, that´s what I saw and that´s what I felt emanating from Yeshua. I believe that is what God is, purity, truth and love. Obviously, He is the Creator of all things, but those three things are what I felt. The look in Yeshua´s eyes and His smile, it was the most genuine, honest, caring and sincere look I have ever seen; more so than the look of a new mother´s face as she looks upon her baby for the first time after giving birth.

Yeshua said three more words to me, ¨I forgive you.¨ In that instant, for the first time in more than 50 years, I actually understood what the word 'love' meant. And I was raised in an unbroken home, father, mother, brothers, uncles, aunts, etc. I was told I was loved more times than I can count, but only now do I get it!

Then He reached out His hands as if to give me a push, but without touching me or saying anything more (although more seemed to be said without words), I was thrown back to where I was sitting a couple of feet from my friend who was still talking. I was dumbfounded. I didn´t say a word. My friend was still talking, although he was looking at me in a curious manner, like--are you listening? But he went on talking and I said nothing.

One or two days went by, of course my thoughts were consumed with what I saw or what I thought I saw. How do you say to someone, ¨Hey, I just saw and spoke to Yeshua?¨ I was actually wondering if I was nuts or something. So, I prayed and asked for some help in this matter. I didn´t want to get it wrong and I didn´t want to tell my old friend, or anyone else that I saw and spoke to Yeshua if I was delusional. I came to realize I was not.

The stumbling block which I referred to is no longer present. I consider myself to be one of the wealthiest people I know and I have next to nothing in this world, nor do I want anything. What I do have is a much greater understanding of Yeshua than I had before. The only way I am able to understand words like forgiveness and love is because of Yeshua.

Let me put it this way: Yeshua is the ultimate big brother.

Blessed is He who comes in the name of YaHoVaH; God bless Yeshua. Amen